The story I have been writing has been in my mind for around 8 years now. You might be saying, “That’s a long time, Alana, you haven’t finished it by now?” Well, for one, I am almost finished with the first draft (eeeee!) and two, I wasn’t exactly writing it that whole time.
I distinctly remember jotting down my idea of the story and the world it lived in during a philosophy class my Junior year of college in New York. The world and characters started showing themselves to me and I was desperately trying to write them down in the margins of my notebook. Luckily, I got a little bit more serious than that. For a while, it was just jotting down notes, seeing what was coming out of my head.
Fast forward to me out of college in Boulder, Colorado. I took this novel idea (hehe, get it?) and put something into action. I got The 90-Day Novel: Unlock the Story Within by Alan Watt and put in a lot of hours to develop my characters, giving them real fears, hopes, and dreams. I see it as a huge foundation to my book as it stands today. Would my characters have been as in-depth if I didn’t use the book? Probably not, I don’t know. Also, spoiler alert, I didn’t finish writing my novel in 90 days. I don’t think I even finished Alan Watt’s book, but it was invaluably helpful to getting into my world and characters. However, I didn’t actually get many words down in my actual novel at this point. I think, perhaps, I had written a few pages (that still remain today), but it was more brainstorms and sketching out all the pieces to my characters.
Progress forward and I find myself back to my hometown of Los Angeles, California, needing a job and lacking clear direction. My novel takes a backseat to a lot of other things. I have too many dreams swirling in my mind and they confuse me so that I chase none. A quote I learned from a philosophy class floats up into my mind…
“There is no more miserable human being than one in whom nothing is habitual but indecision.” – William James
And ain’t that the truth. I went and listed all of the things I would love to do, that I believe would be fulfilling and also able to help others through it. I had (still have) some very special people in my life who helped me map out my dreams and taught me to allow myself to believe in me. And, very eventually, (maybe two and a half years in?) I decide that I am going to chase that novel. The idea that still sticks with me today that is almost spent in the over 600 pages I’ve now written. That act of decision was so incredibly uplifting and powerful. I felt purpose and direction. Even if nothing was going to come of this, I was still going to write a book.
It was still a struggle, don’t get me wrong. I set writing goals each month and didn’t accomplish them. I still felt distracted while knowing that I needed to focus on it. I inched my way more and more through my story and put fresh (figurative) ink down on the page that had run dry for too long. But still, the story would never be done if I went at such a slow rate. Daily writing wasn’t really a habit. It needed to be more ingrained in me.
I’m not sure how I discovered it, but some time in the fall, I discovered National Novel Writing Month or NaNoWriMo. And I was like, yes! A novel-writing month, I should participate in however you participate! The idea of NaNoWriMo is to get participants to write a 50,000 novel by the end of the month. Yeah, it’s a lot and terrifying. Did I finish my novel by the end of the month? Um, no. But did I develop the absolutely beautiful habit of writing 1000+ (1600, to be exact) words a day? YES! And it fundamentally changed my writing life.
I laugh when I look back on my pre-NaNoWriMo goals. For example, one was “2200 words a week.” A week! I can do that in a day now. And it really is in big part to NaNoWriMo. It was a grind, it was a struggle, but those 30 days carved out a beautiful habit of purposeful, daily writing. Pen to paper, finger to keyboard every day, even when inspiration runs flat.
After NaNoWriMo, I continued writing at least 1200 words a day, watching my novel flourish from the beginning to just about the end. It’s a habit, it’s part of me, it’s going to bring me to my goal of finishing this first draft and beyond. Again, even if this book never gets published, I will have written a book!
Of course, other things helped to refine and improve this habit (such as this Udemy course), but to me, NaNoWriMo really kicked me off my trembling feet and helped me run with my writing. So thank you, NaNoWriMo, and I’ll see you again later this year, hopefully with the next of this book series (can that be a thing if even one isn’t published?).